I know a little of how you feel, we are fairly new to the game but money is so tight that everything is gradually declining here. Every time i think of a little job there's a machine to be fixed to do it, or parts and materials to buy and no money. We can;t even cover our overheads, certainly no money for replacing and repairing things. It does get you down, i don't want to be rich, i just want to eek out a living and not have the place rot around meWe are approaching a time when serious thinking needs to be done. The machinery is old and more and more serious and expensive breakdowns occur which take more and more time to fix. Most of the buildings are going the same way, though half aren't so bad.
The land drainage system is 50 years old and some it requires extensive rework and / or renewal.
There is hardly enough money in the job to cover day to running costs never mind the sort of investment needed to sort out the problems listed above.
Myself and my brother are getting older and there has never been so few of us on the farm. 200 acres is becoming top heavy with overhead costs for the sales we generate.
And to be honest my enthusiasm and energy has never been lower. With no more in the bank than we had at this time last year I wonder what is the point of ordering next year's fertiliser. Money goes out, money comes in, we do get a small living but actually accumulate nothing,
I'd probably be better off letting the arable and doing something else.
Better get outside and do something. No shortage of jobs. List as long as my arm. Most will incur costs that see little or very slow payback, but if I don't do them then the business slips a bit further down into chaos.