Christoph1945
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- Widnes West Cheshire
Ive looked at this thread over the years but this is the first time I’ve posted.
Don’t want to say too much as it’s a public forum, but, well.......... I’m not in a good place right now. There, I’ve admitted it!
I’m physically and mentally worn out and spend most of my time feeling like a complete failure. Seem to be stuck in a rut of constant drudgery and work, with no time for clear thinking/management time anymore.
I run a profitable business and have no money worries at all, but I feel under constant pressure to build the business to support my family.Very much struggling to find the correct work/life balance and find it very hard to switch off - when I do take time off I get feelings of guilt that I’m neglecting things/should be working harder. My wife is a big support to me but don’t want the farming business to ultimately come between us.
looking at social media everyone else makes life look so easy, and I often wonder where I’m going wrong. maybe a break away from social media is needed.
I have taken anti-depressants in the past but felt that long term they weren’t best for my health (left me feeling even more tired). So not sure what the solutions are, talking to people probably helps, but I see very few people on a day to day basis, not helped by the Covid situation of course.
But I would like to thank others for contributing to this thread, just so that I know I’m not the only person ‘struggling’. Sorry for rambling on, these are just a few random thoughts as I sit here at 3.30am about to milk my cows again
Good morning Early Riser,
an another day ahead with those coos,eh? How does the day normally pan out? Being a farm ignorant townie, I know next to nothing about coos, how you have to look after them, keep them safe from TB, get a decent price for their milk, organise AI, or a load of bull.
From what very little I have learned about farming on here, I guess that there is a great deal about farming to make one very angry and depression can soon slip in under one's radar.
If you really need to get something off your mind, why not withhold your number and ring one of the support agencies, of which there are many but of course members at FCN will comprehend your dilemmas far better than some others and will, no doubt, be able support you better than some others.
But if it's just someone to listen to you and act as a sounding-board the Samaritans are always there to listen and give you the opportunity to talk.
Stay safe, stay well, and above all remember that you are not alone; even at this unearthly hour!
Chris
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