Dealing with depression - suicidal thoughts - Join the conversation (including helpline details)

harrow

Member
@harrow no disrespect intended but maybe taking them means you are not in more trouble than if you hadn't used them.
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You could be right but I can honestly say I don't feel any different. I am having another zoom call with a councillor tomorrow.
I think I need a change of dosage or tablets but with covid I can't even get my bloods checked even though there is a request form from the GP waiting for me to have them done.
 
Anyone on here had ssri’s?

I have always had an unhealthy level of underlying anxiety but they think it’s triggering my heart episodes etc so have suggested these to help?
Yes started again - havent been on them for 18 years but my daily battle has meant I have mood drops so bad it scares me and they are becoming more regular . Duloxetine for anxiety and fibro pain. Just waiting for them to kick in. Adding to that Vit D and K2 which is helping with my morning waking. May have to spend the rest of my life on them but willing to accept that Im a pretty strong person but carry a serious weakness which Im sure is inherited.
 
Yes started again - havent been on them for 18 years but my daily battle has meant I have mood drops so bad it scares me and they are becoming more regular . Duloxetine for anxiety and fibro pain. Just waiting for them to kick in. Adding to that Vit D and K2 which is helping with my morning waking. May have to spend the rest of my life on them but willing to accept that Im a pretty strong person but carry a serious weakness which Im sure is inherited.

I hate being a Dumbo but what are, is, SSRIs?
 

DrWazzock

Member
Arable Farmer
Location
Lincolnshire
And there I nearly went again.
Setting myself unachievable targets and then consuming myself with angst about how on earth I was ever going to attain them.
I am not refurbing the entire combine, just doing the really really urgent stuff.
I am not converting one of the sheds into a grain store, I am patching up the old one.
It will just have to do, and if it doesn't well, it doesn't.
So sick of spending so much time and money on this job that gives very little in return.
And cash saved will go in an ISA.
And the time saved will be spent in the garden or having a trip or two out if that is ever allowed again.
 

harrow

Member
And there I nearly went again.
Setting myself unachievable targets and then consuming myself with angst about how on earth I was ever going to attain them.
I am not refurbing the entire combine, just doing the really really urgent stuff.
I am not converting one of the sheds into a grain store, I am patching up the old one.
It will just have to do, and if it doesn't well, it doesn't.
So sick of spending so much time and money on this job that gives very little in return.
And cash saved will go in an ISA.
And the time saved will be spent in the garden or having a trip or two out if that is ever allowed again.

Maybe we have to be more selfish and do things for ourselves, things we enjoy ?
 

Robt

Member
Location
Suffolk
To add an update on my situation. So it’s been approx 15 months since I had a wobble and ended up in my doctors crying my eyes out asking for help. Have now been off medication for 13 months ( don’t worry if you aren’t as we are all different. ) still have anxiety but have learned to live with it. I think it’s just me. I can walk into a room of 200 (when allowed) and speak. Walk into a strangers home and help ( first responder ) . Yet I can sit in my drive at home and take a few minutes to get out of the car. Volunteering has really helped me as nobody judges you.
If anyone is struggling , I’m happy to talk by pm
Robt
Edit, lost a friend this week . Prompted me to push to live life more and accept my flaws
 
Having a tough week, started off with a stressful occurrence on Monday and been on a wobble since. Really should be back at work to take my mind off of things. Struggling to focus with college work at the minute which is quite unlike me. New job in the offing, I hope I can throw myself at that over the summer and earn some money even if my end goal is delayed another 12 months.
 

DrWazzock

Member
Arable Farmer
Location
Lincolnshire
Maybe we have to be more selfish and do things for ourselves, things we enjoy ?
I think so. I have tried my best for government agencies, extended family, suppliers and customers, the parish church etc over the years and often ended up shouldering the bill or the workload but whenever I have needed the smallest bit of cooperation for mutual benefit it’s either a “no” or a big bill or they turn on you.
I used to wonder why the oldies took more of a hard line. Now I know why.
First thing I’m going to do is install a telephone answering system that keeps you pressing buttons and listening to music for 20 minutes then tells you that we only work on Tuesdays between 11 and 2.
 

DrWazzock

Member
Arable Farmer
Location
Lincolnshire
Not sure I meant to post that.
Anyway was thinking about the “weather tyrant”.
A constant source of angst if you let it be.
Oh there is a frost so I need to rush, rush, rush and get the salt on my ploughed land for the beet and if I miss this chance well that’s it, it will be ruination. Well the spreader isn’t ready and I’ll take my time to get it ready and if this “weather window” comes and goes and I miss it then it’s just tough. There will be another chance. There usually is. I’m done with the fecking weather tyrant. I really am.
 

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