As I see it, we have 3 courses open to us ~ NHS medication, counselling (which in itself is a form of medication), or as you and the fortunate, a path of self-help …. usually the most difficult but in the long term, perhaps the most efficacious.
A huge Well Done to you.
What I would add is that I have tried the other 2 ways route of help.
I was on anti-Ds for just over a year which did serve a purpose. But I likened it to watching myself in 3rd person and hated it. I can see how medication can affect people. I also have issue with the relative routine use of anti-Ds as a solution leading to people becoming dependent on them rather than treating the person. But that is for another day.
I also endured counselling which absolutely did not work for me. Spending time discussing how I was feeling when I already knew did not help. The last thing I needed was to wallow. I was late for one session. 10 minutes I think it was so not a disaster especially I was sat downstairs the previous session for 15 and said nothing.
Anyway....I was late and got told off for it as it was "inconvenient and I should do better"
F**K ME!! I'm only here because I'm deemed a suicide risk and this is part of my treatment and you're the one put out?! I didn't return.
Then there was just grey and misery until last year.
So I don't know if I did was right. Could I have made life better by staying the course? I've no idea nor will I. But I probably wasn't receptive to any help in whatever form it came in. I'm open to help now and now that I care about myself I'm doing what I can.