CopperBeech
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Some days, life make you really sad.
Just feels like drowning in sand.
Just feels like drowning in sand.
Dealing with depression - suicidal thoughts - Join the conversation (including helpline details)
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lazy farmer
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sorry to hear that. Is there a particular reason why?
CopperBeech
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Money and time. Thats largely it I think.
lazy farmer
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Thinking back you were having a few tough days a few weeks back. Has nothing improved ? I know the weather certainly hasn't.
CopperBeech
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Life is just complicated. Always seem to just about 'get there' and then something comes out of left field and its three steps back. I'm just having a crappy day, but i'll get there. Pressures of lack of money, meaning lack of staff, meaning lack of time. . . . . meaning things get missed, things get delayed and things go to sh!t. Usually the thing that suffers is my own stock, which takes bottom of the list, after everyone elses. . . . problem is at the moment other folk either arent paying enough or arent paying on time . . . . so it all its worse!
Realistically I need another full time employee.
CopperBeech
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And just to top it off, had about 20 rams get in with 600 of my own ewes a month early.
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- East Riding of Yorkshire
Having had a s***e summer and now slowly getting back to regular hours am kinda dreading the weeks ahead, not in a suicidal way but more of a potential be down kind of way. Had a massive blow at end of July and just threw my self into work, am now also catching up with people not seen for a long time and it's hard at times.
Lili
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From reading posts on here lots are struggling. Awful endless wet weather, no sun, nights drawing in and winter coming doesn't help. Can only offer sympathy and assure you are not on your own. Keep posting if it helps. Best wishes.
Christoph1945
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You certainly are not alone; even the rich, famous, and powerful suffer from depression and get those times when they feel at a very low ebb.
Once, when I spent four months in a mental hospital, I was surrounded, by professional, well educated, and gifted people; all of whom were in the same, or similar, boat to myself.
I remember hearing of the suicide of one of our famous British actors and the report that said that he had done every thing and there was nothing left to do. How sad; he could have imparted so much to the youngsters that were coming along behind him.
You are all wonderfully made and talented people, with so much to offer to those around you. The world often displays a distorted image of our selves to us and we believe what the world says about us. Just like that old hall of mirrors at the funfairs, we see our selves arong!
When the proverbial is hitting the fan and you are up to your neck in it, the best thing to do is....................don't make waves! And when it's in your eyes, it is difficult to see beyond the present moment.
Stay safe, stay well, and remember it "will" pass.
Chris
Once, when I spent four months in a mental hospital, I was surrounded, by professional, well educated, and gifted people; all of whom were in the same, or similar, boat to myself.
I remember hearing of the suicide of one of our famous British actors and the report that said that he had done every thing and there was nothing left to do. How sad; he could have imparted so much to the youngsters that were coming along behind him.
You are all wonderfully made and talented people, with so much to offer to those around you. The world often displays a distorted image of our selves to us and we believe what the world says about us. Just like that old hall of mirrors at the funfairs, we see our selves arong!
When the proverbial is hitting the fan and you are up to your neck in it, the best thing to do is....................don't make waves! And when it's in your eyes, it is difficult to see beyond the present moment.
Stay safe, stay well, and remember it "will" pass.
Chris
Christoph1945
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Sometimes, but not always, our free floating anxiety can be our small child (or perhaps not so small child) reaching out to remind us of a past hurt, or fear.
Christoph1945
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And very often our fear is not as large and powerful as we imagine it to be.
Christoph1945
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The flame and fire are real but the rest is nothing more than
a few toys from Toys-R-Us!
a few toys from Toys-R-Us!
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- Lincolnshire
This time of year is a bad time for me. The fading light doesn’t help. But once I get used to it things level out and the new winter routine kicks in.
It's good that you have a winter routine structured that you can switch to, makes it easier to manage then.
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Never thought of it that way. Instead of trying to do the summer work in fewer and fewer hours, devise a winter-orientated work schedule. Might try that.
Christoph1945
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Just some thoughts............
Watched the interviews with Spike Milligan on tv the other night but unfortunately only caught the show part way through. Of course, the matter of spikes depression came up several times but I found it most interesting that when asked about what triggered his depressive onsets he thought for a second or two and said perhaps someone would say something hurtful or nasty and that could set things off. I may, of course be misquoting Spike and I would like to see the whole program again. Perhaps I can view it on catch-up? It is known that many clowns and comedians have suffered from depression; as have a great many famous people.
Spike's comments set me thinking as to how depression may be triggered emotionally ( not chemically or biologically ) and how to break the cycle that so often imprisons people in dark places. Anger, or repressed anger, is perhaps a subject worth giving some thought to. Can depression make us more prone to anger and can anger magnify our depression? Oh my, what a cyclic vortex one can fall into; unless the cycle is broken by counselling, medication, or perhaps just good old fashioned sharing with a trusted friend.
I also set to wondering about farming folk and their experiences within our English schooling system. I supposed, perhaps wrongly, that within a rural community most children of farmers would fit in very well and find the school community to be most acceptable and accepting place to learn. But what if one has to attend a school within a not so rural town; are farmers children treated differently by fellow pupils? I personally know that many who are judged to be "different" by others are cruelly treated by them, or perhaps even ostracised.
Have a safe and encouraging day
Chris
Watched the interviews with Spike Milligan on tv the other night but unfortunately only caught the show part way through. Of course, the matter of spikes depression came up several times but I found it most interesting that when asked about what triggered his depressive onsets he thought for a second or two and said perhaps someone would say something hurtful or nasty and that could set things off. I may, of course be misquoting Spike and I would like to see the whole program again. Perhaps I can view it on catch-up? It is known that many clowns and comedians have suffered from depression; as have a great many famous people.
Spike's comments set me thinking as to how depression may be triggered emotionally ( not chemically or biologically ) and how to break the cycle that so often imprisons people in dark places. Anger, or repressed anger, is perhaps a subject worth giving some thought to. Can depression make us more prone to anger and can anger magnify our depression? Oh my, what a cyclic vortex one can fall into; unless the cycle is broken by counselling, medication, or perhaps just good old fashioned sharing with a trusted friend.
I also set to wondering about farming folk and their experiences within our English schooling system. I supposed, perhaps wrongly, that within a rural community most children of farmers would fit in very well and find the school community to be most acceptable and accepting place to learn. But what if one has to attend a school within a not so rural town; are farmers children treated differently by fellow pupils? I personally know that many who are judged to be "different" by others are cruelly treated by them, or perhaps even ostracised.
Have a safe and encouraging day
Chris
Sweepa
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Not many of you know that in North West Ireland and Northern Ireland , there is a predicted to be a severe fodder crisis. With the insane floods 2 months ago many farmers have extremely little fodder to last winter. There has been a few suicides because of it and people have been reaching out to mental health groups and helplines in unprecedented numbers.
spin cycle
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Christoph1945
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What can be done? Emergency fodder lift? A bit like the Berlin airlift?
Perhaps the Daily Mail, or Country File could help?
We spend billions on foreign aid! Why not spend some on home aid?
Perhaps the Daily Mail, or Country File could help?
We spend billions on foreign aid! Why not spend some on home aid?
Friesianfan
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Struggling