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[Blod]

BBC Radio 4 'Something Understood' this morning was a good one. Worth a listen.

 

[dstudent]

Good morning y all have a fabulous day

 

[Christoph1945]

I could be wrong, I often am (according to my wife), but wasn't it the Psalmist who prayed 'Lord, be thou a light unto my feet'? ie please illuminate my every step.

 

[waterbuffalofarmer]

I could be wrong, I often am (according to my wife), but wasn't it the Psalmist who prayed 'Lord, be thou a light unto my feet'? ie please illuminate my every step.

Yes it was Dawid (david) who wrote it in psalm 119 verse 105.

your word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path

this was written when he was in great affliction and only the lords guidance was guiding him through. But in order achieve that guidance we have to search for it, searching through study, we have to have possession of his word within our minds and to cast off those things of this age to put on him in order to achieve this

 

[40 series]

UCB is a Christian radio station. May not be everyone’s cup of tea but I like it. No adverts, positive message and good music.

 

[40 series]

Yea UCB is good. In Ireland North and South there is a station called spirit fm. It's on mw549. Christian radio station and is very good.

 

[40 series]

http://angusbuchan.tv/grassroots/
Angus Buchan.
A south African farmer. Very good to listen to as well

 

[franklin]

Has anyone done a mindfulness meditation course?I'm thinking of doing one but not convinced I will stick at it.Requires a big commitment ie half an hour a day for 8wks,

We have a mindfulness course at church. All those who do it are complete hotties, so may give it a go one day.

 

[Christoph1945]

Waterbuffalofarmer................you have set me thinking...........Dawid......Polish or Hebrew form?

 

[Alicecow]

Waterbuffalofarmer................you have set me thinking...........Dawid......Polish or Hebrew form?

Welsh?

 

[Jameshenry]

god i'm low tonight....4 days of flu/cold....weather/sheep...can't get on top of work....broken down tractor and youngest daughter crazing about this years holiday....just having a tot up it's like all the things i pay for don't rate...kids are bleeding me dry

everybody seems to think i should want what they do and act with outrage when i don't

somedays i tell myself that millions of others would kill for what our family has....but the truth is wife and kids don't rate it at all

That's tough going ! Sad really how you can have a lot of people all around you and still feel like you're on your own ! i know that feeling all too well ,

 

[spin cycle]

That's tough going ! Sad really how you can have a lot of people all around you and still feel like you're on your own ! i know that feeling all too well ,

thanks....truth is just needed to have a rant....not really me,....thanks for pm ....gremlins won't let me reply

 

[Bury the Trash]

Not so much blue Monday as a blue few weeks this time of year, ir .Flue does yer head in, machinery and sheep too, ........... but for sure you're family does rate you @spin cycle

 

[Christoph1945]

Hi Spincycle,

me n the Mrs came down with a really bad flue infection last year, before the vaccines were being issued, and I found that paracetamol really helped to alleviate some of the ghastly feelings that accompanied it.

Having health problems is a bit like those lead weights that they fit to racehorses to handicap them. All the challenges of life tend to be somewhat more difficult when we are struggling with sickness. Not to mention kids n wives!

 

[waterbuffalofarmer]

Waterbuffalofarmer................you have set me thinking...........Dawid......Polish or Hebrew form?

Hebrew

 

[waterbuffalofarmer]

I had 2 emotional meltdowns yesterday. Last night I had my head in my hands just sobbing uncontrollably, everything this past month has been hell and I felt so alone. I went out to milk the buffalo earlier than usual in the evening and ofc being sensitive animals they didn't let down properly, jumping around and to cop it all off the milking machine was playing up, as we've changed pipes recently, so there was a buffalo stood there being milked, pipes had come off but the clusters still on her bag, tbh mum and I had a right laugh about it later on. You could say I completely lost it last night, emotions out of control, but not to out that I could do anything ofc. the swearing was horrendous, as was the sobbing and the bashing around of cake bags, I'm afraid I may have terrified the buffalo a little, for that I feel really bad. Today just feeling emotionally worn out from all the stress, so quieter than usual. Things can only get better from now on tho eh? Sorry to hear everyone else has been having a bad time of it too, remember I'm here if anyone wants to message or needs to This weather does not help

 

[waterbuffalofarmer]

thanks....truth is just needed to have a rant....not really me,....thanks for pm ....gremlins won't let me reply

Hope you feel better soon! Its good to rant, I do it all the time, helps to alleviate stress. We are all here for you

 

[Lili]

I had 2 emotional meltdowns yesterday. Last night I had my head in my hands just sobbing uncontrollably, everything this past month has been hell and I felt so alone. I went out to milk the buffalo earlier than usual in the evening and ofc being sensitive animals they didn't let down properly, jumping around and to cop it all off the milking machine was playing up, as we've changed pipes recently, so there was a buffalo stood there being milked, pipes had come off but the clusters still on her bag, tbh mum and I had a right laugh about it later on. You could say I completely lost it last night, emotions out of control, but not too out that I could do anything ofc. the swearing was horrendous, as the sobbing and the bashing around of cake bags, I'm afraid I may have terrified the buffalo a little, for that I feel really bad. Today just feeling emotionally worn out from all the stress, so quieter than usual. Things can only get better from now on tho eh? Sorry to hear everyone else has been having a bad time of it too, remember I'm here if anyone wants to message or needs to This weather does not help

Sorry things are not good at the moment @waterbuffalofarmer Is there any particular reason for feeling so rough

 

[waterbuffalofarmer]

Sorry things are not good at the moment @waterbuffalofarmer Is there any particular reason for feeling so rough

Thanks
Just everything really, weather being terrible, 10 inches deep in mud, everywhere just rivers flowing off the land, sheep looking miserable so going to have to move them a bit later. lost 2 buffalo this month, plus 1 unborn 4-5 month old feotus a calf I sold to a couple down south wales had a seizure the other day and they won't tell me if he made it or not, bearing in mind I reared him from a little baby through sweat and tears/drama. He was gotten by an older animal, which wasn't nice, over food we think. Then we lost my great uncle beginning of Jan after a horrible and agonising battle with cancer, that was horrific! Plus we had the snow which made the ground horrific after.... and then last week we had half a dozen animals come down with mastitis and I felt terrible as I'm responsible for their care when milking, so I quit which caused a massive family row, we all fell out for a time and then patched things up. Then I had a kind of ex bf get back in contact and messaging me, just made me feel like crap that he thinks everything is hunky dory after the way he treated me, trying to be civil but at the same time keeping chatting to a minimum, as he's trying to get into my head again At least it feels that way! Been really worried about my Nan this month too, as shes had horrendous health problems and requires an operation. Yesterday I had to clean out a load of calves and had no support from my brothers, which makes everything 10 times harder, so with everything I just snapped, haven't lost it that bad in some time....
I think I just need a break tbf. May go and visit my Nan this month help her out and such
Thanks for listening and sorry for the ranting

 

[Christoph1945]

Aaaaah now! How dare I click like for your present missive? Well it's good that you write of what is going on and the frustration it is causing to your caring heart. Perhaps one could condense it down to "you are angry, very angry"? And understandably so!

I'm guessing that you spent some years as a student but am wondering which subjects you took.

Chris