Dealing with depression - suicidal thoughts - Join the conversation (including helpline details)

[Gerbert]

Hey @Christoph1945 , I want to thank you for your kind words. Alot of times when you give a reaction to somebody in this thread it brings a tear to my eye and I am sure those people you react to feel the same. You are a treasure for this thread. Hope you do well with some health problems. All the best!

 

[Christoph1945]

Hey @Christoph1945 , I want to thank you for your kind words. Alot of times when you give a reaction to somebody in this thread it brings a tear to my eye and I am sure those people you react to feel the same. You are a treasure for this thread. Hope you do well with some health problems. All the best!

Many thanks for your kind and supportive words. Digging deep and remembering how things were for my self makes it easier for me to, perhaps, empathise with others in here but there have been times that memories have caused my own tears to flow.

Tears can be both cleansing and healing; even Jesus, the prophet from Nazareth, wept.

But what is this life, if we have no time to sit and share?

Stay safe, stay well, and hopefully we will all remember that even the deepest, darkest, depression can (with help and support) be recovered from.

 

[holwellcourtfarm]

It's 70 minutes long but this film makes interesting viewing. Molly was one of Obama's climate team. The film deals with 3 themes all interrelated in her life:
Climate change attitudes
Ice climbing
Her bipolar disorder

She makes key observations about how they've interacted in shaping her.

 

[Bokey]

I'm f**king fighting with anxiety again struggling to rationalise thoughts it's like I'm stuck in my brain and my body's powerless

 

[ollie989898]

I'm f**king fighting with anxiety again struggling to rationalise thoughts it's like I'm stuck in my brain and my body's powerless

Go for a walk or get off the place and distract yourself for a bit?

 

[FG.]

Go for a walk or get off the place and distract yourself for a bit?

Good advice.
Don't walk round your own place, though.

 

[FG.]

Good advice.
Don't walk round your own place, though.

Got any mates that need a hand with anything?.
Bedding up, welding/ fixing something with them.

 

[Lili]

I'm f**king fighting with anxiety again struggling to rationalise thoughts it's like I'm stuck in my brain and my body's powerless

As said try and focus "outside" if you can. Making something/helping someone out /visiting someone who cant get out much or you haven't seen for a while /going off the farm somewhere - change of scene -will give you an opportunity to concentrate on something else and let your worries run in the background. Anything that distracts even for a while is good.

 

[CornishRanger]

If you can't get away for a bit @Bokey, try putting your thoughts on paper, make a list or do some brainstorming or something, seeing it in black and white may bring some clarity

 

[Bokey]

If you can't get away for a bit @Bokey, try putting your thoughts on paper, make a list or do some brainstorming or something, seeing it in black and white may bring some clarity

Thank you all for listening an trying to help my head feels mashed part of my brain is saying this threat is an irrational thought and the other part is saying no this is real and is playing out the worse case scenarios leading to a feeling of dred throughout my body

 

[CornishRanger]

Thank you all for listening an trying to help my head feels mashed part of my brain is saying this threat is an irrational thought and the other part is saying no this is real and is playing out the worse case scenarios leading to a feeling of dred throughout my body

That's what the thread is for! The mind has this ability to paralyze us, usually before we realise it's happening, procrastination and worry takes over and suddenly we realise a day, (or more!) has gone by and we haven't achieved anything. I try and remember the quote "we suffer more in our imagination than we do in reality" or words to that effect, to help put my concerns in perspective.

 

[Christoph1945]

That's what the thread is for! The mind has this ability to paralyze us, usually before we realise it's happening, procrastination and worry takes over and suddenly we realise a day, (or more!) has gone by and we haven't achieved anything. I try and remember the quote "we suffer more in our imagination than we do in reality" or words to that effect, to help put my concerns in perspective.

Or, undeclared and suppressed thoughts often grow out of all proportion and put on really scary faces and worrying upsets our breathing patterns, influencing our thoughts even more.

 

[Christoph1945]

Thank you all for listening an trying to help my head feels mashed part of my brain is saying this threat is an irrational thought and the other part is saying no this is real and is playing out the worse case scenarios leading to a feeling of dred throughout my body

Can you write a word picture of the irrational thought/threat?

 

[waterbuffalofarmer]

Or, undeclared and suppressed thoughts often grow out of all proportion and put on really scary faces and worrying upsets our breathing patterns, influencing our thoughts even more.

Would it help talking about it at sll? The thought you have which is being overthought thus leading to spiraling out of control? I find intended, if its not too uncomfy ofc, is better discussed with somebody else to get another point of view on it. Sometimes things seem huge but in reality turn out not to be,but it takes for somebody else to see it to help you. Nothing to be ashamed about either, everybody knows this feeling all too well x here if u need to message anybody

 

[Christoph1945]

There may be times when we speak out loud some of our psychological fears and the listener appears unimpressed, or somewhat nonplussed but, perhaps, the greater magic involved is the hearing of our selves speak the fears out loud.

There was once an occasion when I was being returned to a psychiatric ward and my mind was filled with a fear that they were going to steal my brain. Upon telling my fear to a clergyman friend he guffawed and said ..... what on earth would they want with 'your' brain. Not very helpful or supportive eh? But the telling of the fear took a little of the edge of it, allowing me go forward into the situation and eventually come out the other side.

Talk it through with a friend, a Samaritan, God in prayer, or even your dog but if the dog gets up and walks away don't worry the key can be hearing your self speak the fear!

 

[mobileweld]

Writing in this thread to make me go through with it. I am going to go and see somebody professionally a counsellor or what ever they go as. I’ve never quite got over or dealt mentally with what happened to my dad and now my elderly grandad (his father) is in hospital I just know if he doesn’t come out again I am going to be in a bad place.

 

[CornishRanger]

Writing in this thread to make me go through with it. I am going to go and see somebody professionally a counsellor or what ever they go as. I’ve never quite got over or dealt mentally with what happened to my dad and now my elderly grandad (his father) is in hospital I just know if he doesn’t come out again I am going to be in a bad place.

Good for you, sometimes we need to talk to someone to process things. If your feel like it you can use this group to help in any way we can . Hope things go well for your grandad

 

[Christoph1945]

Writing in this thread to make me go through with it. I am going to go and see somebody professionally a counsellor or what ever they go as. I’ve never quite got over or dealt mentally with what happened to my dad and now my elderly grandad (his father) is in hospital I just know if he doesn’t come out again I am going to be in a bad place.

You may like to have a chat with the Samaritans first, to give you a chance to marshall your thoughts prior to paying for a consultation with a professional counselling service.

Some folks make a few notes before a consultation, to avoid walking away afterward and thinking ..... we never even talked about IT.

Would it be inappropriate of me to ask what happened to your dad and why is grandad actually in hospital?

 

[holwellcourtfarm]

Writing in this thread to make me go through with it. I am going to go and see somebody professionally a counsellor or what ever they go as. I’ve never quite got over or dealt mentally with what happened to my dad and now my elderly grandad (his father) is in hospital I just know if he doesn’t come out again I am going to be in a bad place.

Feel free to share any details or questions you can on here but definitely go ahead with talking to someone.

 

[mobileweld]

You may like to have a chat with the Samaritans first, to give you a chance to marshall your thoughts prior to paying for a consultation with a professional counselling service.

Some folks make a few notes before a consultation, to avoid walking away afterward and thinking ..... we never even talked about IT.

Would it be inappropriate of me to ask what happened to your dad and why is grandad actually in hospital?

Thanks,

dad is still with us but had a stroke a few years ago. He went from the most hard working man I’ve known to being wheelchair bound, unable to look after himself and left with no speech. And all over night. It’s been a hard long journey and mum is now his full time carer. It’s the speech thing that is the toughest part. He is still there inside as he will laugh at old memories and will point out things that he notices around the farm if something is out of place but is trapped with no voice.

grandad is 89 and in hospital with flu. Very weak and doesn’t seem to want to eat anything despite me visiting each day and trying to encourage him that he needs some nutrition to build himself up again.

life just seems to have passed by I am early 30’s now but it seems like yesterday these two men in my life were these big giants whom I looked up to