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This ^^^^^, all of this. Grieving is exactly the right description. Go easy on yourself. Keep in touch with friends. Take time for yourself. Ask for help (get a lady in to clean for you). It will come right in the end@marshfarmer it sounds as though you are grieving and that is normal. You’ve had a shock and a change has happened. Sometimes it helps to step ‘outside’ of ourselves and take a moment or three to be kind and supportive of ‘me’ (I mean you ) as if to a child or best friend. There’s a saying “you’re your own worst enemy”. Well ...you can be your own best friend too, it just takes a little practice.
I’m still quite new to TFF and spent a long time looking at it from the outside, i’m glad I joined the family of TFF, i always keep an eye on this page having suffered and shut myself off from the world in the past, things WILL get better in time, you must be somewhat of an optimist in nature as you grow spuds for the free market!Thanks. I used to use this forum loads and bff before hand but with each dark time i withdrew from everyone. Stupidly. I can't be like that now.
I have a good friend who suffered withdeppression had,nt seen him for a while, swopped his job etc.met him on the road near the farm one day.said over the last couple of yearsSomething I copied off Facebook posted by my ex partner
I don’t normally share long winded rants but I hope this gets the message across.
Maybe if people's heads weren't buried in the sand of ignorance and they took the time to understand, instead of judging and thinking it won't happen to them because they have the perfect family, life would be that bit easier for people that do experience this!
This hits close to home for me, for family and friends who live under this shadow.
The days of 'it' not being talked about or being taboo should be over.
Yes, it's sadly true that there are those who milk the system and even sadder that there are those who don't know just how much help is available out there for them.
In the most difficult moments of life you realise who your true friends are, and the people who really appreciate you.
Unfortunately, most social media 'friends' aren't true friends. They will send you a "like" here and there, but in reality they do not take time to read your status if they see it's lengthy. More than half will stop reading right here, or have already scrolled on to the next post on their page.
I decided to post this message in support of all those who continue to battle with their mental illness.
Now, let's see who will have taken the time to read this lengthy post right through to the end.
If you have read everything so far, please "like" it so that I can put a thank you on your page.
More mental health awareness is urgently needed. Just because you can't see it, doesn't mean people aren't suffering.
Please, try to spare a little of your time with someone who may just want to talk (about anything). Talking can help us all to cope a little more, keeping things bottled up just makes it worse.
Most people will say, "if you need anything, don't hesitate to call me, I'll be there to help you" but will they?
I was once one of those that thought depression was something you needed to “pull yourself together “ or “get over it” but now know different
It’s an awful illness that wrecks people’s lives and also wrecks the lives of people who care and love the person suffering. There are a lot of people out there suffering in different degrees who need more understanding
Life can be a real arse, most of us are on this forum because we've either been involved with farming or still are and let's face it working with Mother Nature requires a tolerance to cope with things we have no control over.
Some can cope by battling head on and thriving on the challenge, some may go along with the flow and chalk up all the knocks and setbacks up to experience, others will bumble along never really tackling any problems head on and not really get anywhere but are happy with their lot. Then there are some who will think they're doing everything right then something comes along to burst the bubble and the bottom has fallen out of their world, even if you can recognise yourselves in the other descriptions there will still be times when you hit rock bottom.
Even the strongest person can struggle to get themselves back up on their feet and with farming being an often lone lifestyle help is not allways accepted let alone recognised and you will often feel that there's only you in the situation you're in. Think again, you aren't the first and you certainly won't be the last, in those quiet moments of despair turn your mind to some of the positive words you've heard, look around you, there's so much more going on around you than your current problems, spring is not that far away, the nights are getting shorter and one of these days it might come dry!
As has been said above when there's been a partnership break up don't fall out, yes it's easy to fall into a slanging match but what's the point, something drew you together in the first place especially if you've been together for quite a while, my marriage breakup happened over 8 years ago, we've been the best of friends as it was financial problems and the care burden of my eldest boy who is autistic that split us apart. It was a cry for help from my wife, I was powerless to help, I was working all the hours god sent to keep the money coming in, working away from home which in turn compounded the problem of her having to cope with everything at home. When we split the Social Services fell over themselves to provide respite and help to cope with Josh but all of it too late to save our marriage. Both my ex and I feel bitterness to the system that could have helped at the time not wait untill it had destroyed us as a family. Eight years on, my ex who married again, badly, has finally realised that we had and still do have a special relationship and has been sorting out her life to come back home. Sounds all very fairy tale-esque but we are adults and as such realise that fairy tales do not exist in the real world. We will get back together again, the boys are happy to have their mom back and we will go on to see what else life has got to chuck at us.
Just get out there and live your life, you can change your's, it's up to the others around you to live their life with you or to go their own way, don't fret about them as you can make enough mistakes on your own without worrying about controlling others
I know where you're coming from BobGreen, I was devastated when my wife left but in the age old ways of being brought up with the "Stiff upper lip and all that" way of thinking I didn't put up much of a fight, I couldn't have lived with myself if I thought I had trapped her into doing something she didn't want, I would not want to feel that I had "caged" her in any way so I just rolled over and let her go. There's not been a day in the past 8 years that I didn't find myself thinking about her or the past in those quiet moments, we had gone through so much and I allways thought that between us we could conquer anything that life could throw at us. We had had a fair amount of upheavals over the years, when we got married I took on a position of shepherd on a large estate, the tied cottage was a great home and we felt secure. Our first child was born and that was quite traumatic with her and him in a special care unit 50 miles away for three weeks just as I was finishing lambing of 1300 ewes. I would visit in the afternoon after sorting out all the main jobs leaving the vet students to cover, get to the hospital at 2pm and sit down by her bed and the next thing I'd know would be herself waking me up at 3 as I had to be back to get back to my job. Bad timing? Well that bit sort of got taken out of our hands as she had to have an emergency caesarian a month early. The following year just as Josh had his first birthday the farm office announced that due to a change in policy with the agents and trustees of the estate that the flock would be cut in half, contract shepherding meant that I had 6 weeks to find myself a new job and a new house. Now that for a low spot in my life took some beating!
It took me 30 years to find someone I wanted to be with and when she went I just couldn't bring myself to go out looking again, yes I'd look at other women from a distance but just couldn't see what I had seen in my wife, that's a sad thing to say finding that I would compare everyone to just the one person but I just couldn't bring myself to burden my "baggage" on someone else. I have my two sons in tow, my eldest being autistic can feel like a millstone around my neck at times as he will never be entirely capable of independant living, yes he could go into a home but it's not a life I would want for him and I would feel forever guilty at doing so. Yes he may have to go into one when I pop my clogs but he will be older and may be more capable, no one knows and it's not a life I want for him now while I'm capable of giving him a life with me.
Having to sort two boys through school and now onto college by myself has made me fiercely protective about them and it's too difficult for me to include anyone else in my life hence me staying single but if she is prepared to come and stand by my side again then she is more than welcome, it will be good to see her build that inner strength that drew me to her in the first place back up again.
It's early days and is in the process of just starting but I live my life day to day, with the amount of disappointments I've had in life I just take things as they come.
Such a good post to read on a miserable cold wet day!So glad i went to the doc's appetite is back which is essential for work. I was a long term sufferer from depression but I wouldn't help myself,big cause of the breakup. Always worried about losing my guns stupidly, even tho I barely use them. Licence due soon, don't really care if I'm refused. To anyone struggling reading this in the future please please reach out to someone or go see the doc. Tough times ahead and I thought I had no friends but I can see them now.
What an amazing woman and what strength of character to be able to set up this scheme to help others in the agricultural community when her and her children's world has been turned upside down.
EMMA’S STORY
February 14, 2018 Farm Safety Blog 2018, Latest News, Mind Your Head
ON VALENTINE’S DAY, WHEN MANY OF US ARE CELEBRATING WITH HEARTS AND FLOWERS, ONE WOMAN’S STORY HIGHLIGHTS THE DEVASTATION THAT LOSING A LOVED ONE TO SUICIDE REALLY BRINGS AND THE INSPIRATION THAT HAS DRIVEN HER TO SET UP A FOUNDATION IN HIS MEMORY TO SUPPORT PEOPLE IN RURAL COMMUNITIES WITH POOR MENTAL HEALTH, ESPECIALLY MEN IN THE AGRICULTURAL SECTOR. MEET THE INSPIRATIONAL EMMA PICTON-JONES…
“My story really began in July 2016. On the 5th of that month I found myself becoming a widow at the age of 27 with an 18 month year old and a 4 year old following my husband’s suicide. To say the suicide came as a shock is an understatement. Naively I presumed that because he had a wife and 2 children and a seemingly settled life he would push through the demons and come out the other side. Sadly he felt that our two children and I would be better off without him and he took the decision to end his life on that fateful day.
https://www.yellowwellies.org/emmas-story/
I have met Emma and can confirm that she has immense courage and was determined that something positive should come out of personal tragedy.What an amazing woman and what strength of character to be able to set up this scheme to help others in the agricultural community when her and her children's world has been turned upside down.
I've slept A1 since the first tablets Monday night. Hard managing the house and farm, too much temptation to eat poorly. Did some tidying on farm and serviced handlers, which made me feel more positive as well as the warm sun during the day, all helps.How’s things today @marshfarmer, I do hope you had a reasonable night