Lili
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- Location
- Aberystwyth hinterland
Hope that unloading all that has helped a bit. Seems like you have been suffering from system overload and definitely need some time out. Good idea to visit your Nan as soon as you can as it will give you a break, time with someone you love and I'm sure she will be delighted to see you.Thanks
Just everything really, weather being terrible, 10 inches deep in mud, everywhere just rivers flowing off the land, sheep looking miserable so going to have to move them a bit later. lost 2 buffalo this month, plus 1 unborn 4-5 month old feotus a calf I sold to a couple down south wales had a seizure the other day and they won't tell me if he made it or not, bearing in mind I reared him from a little baby through sweat and tears/drama. He was gotten by an older animal, which wasn't nice, over food we think. Then we lost my great uncle beginning of Jan after a horrible and agonising battle with cancer, that was horrific! Plus we had the snow which made the ground horrific after.... and then last week we had half a dozen animals come down with mastitis and I felt terrible as I'm responsible for their care when milking, so I quit which caused a massive family row, we all fell out for a time and then patched things up. Then I had a kind of ex bf get back in contact and messaging me, just made me feel like crap that he thinks everything is hunky dory after the way he treated me, trying to be civil but at the same time keeping chatting to a minimum, as he's trying to get into my head again At least it feels that way! Been really worried about my Nan this month too, as shes had horrendous health problems and requires an operation. Yesterday I had to clean out a load of calves and had no support from my brothers, which makes everything 10 times harder, so with everything I just snapped, haven't lost it that bad in some time....
I think I just need a break tbf. May go and visit my Nan this month help her out and such
Thanks for listening and sorry for the ranting